Last week was a big one—my eightieth birthday and our fifty-fifth wedding anniversary.
Your New Favorite Writer is now an octogenarian and, presumably, past ordinary cares.
I love to occupy my zero-G chair in the backyard, staring at the black locust tree that arches high above our roofline. I’ve traveled the world and seen its sights. I love Italy and Alaska; I really like Iceland, Austria, Croatia, and Costa Rica. But my favorite place in the whole wide world? Right here, in my backyard.
Fooboo and I sit here of evenings and commune with the Great All. This communion is sweeter by a glass of wine—or Benedictine, better yet. I share a bit of sharp Wisconsin cheddar with Fooboo. He gobbles it and, if a morsel drops, chases it among the grass blades. I eat mine on a Wasa rye cracker.
I read a book—a history or biography, or a good novel. I see birds and sometimes frame them in my Nikon 8×30 binoculars.
But even at eighty, life’s not all about sitting and relaxing. I picked up some firewood logs the other day from a guy who wanted to get them out of his backyard. I’ll give them a new home, split into pieces, in my woodstove next winter. As I was loading the heavy wood into my little car, he said, “You’re a tough old bird, aren’t you?” I think he meant it as a compliment, not an insult, but in any case I’ll take the rap.
Some people don’t make it to eighty; others are in poor shape when they get there. I’m blessed to be able to continue most of my usual activities—and suppose I’d better do so as long as I can. Satchel Paige said, “Don’t look back. Something might be gaining on you.”
I would not be in such fine fettle, or in any fettle at all, had I not been saved from myself by a grand young woman—Joelle Caroline Nelson—when I was twenty-five. She’s like me—or rather, I’ve become like her. Hungry for life.
“It takes life to love Life.” That was the advice of Lucinda Matlock in Edgar Lee Masters’s Spoon River Anthology.
What is this I hear of sorrow and weariness,
Anger, discontent and drooping hopes?
Degenerate sons and daughters,
Life is too strong for you —
It takes life to love Life.
That’s a more stirring philosophy than I would have come up with on my own, but it approximates my lifemate’s approach to all things, and in fifty-five years I guess I have soaked some of it up.
So I keep on playing tennis, which is just plain fun. And I keep on walking the dog, even when my hips hurt. And I’ll keep mowing the lawn, walking thousands of steps behind the Toro; though I don’t enjoy it all that much, I’m terrified to stop. And I reckon I’ll get all that wood split before winter.
I’m not ready to quit life yet. Tough old bird, you know.
But the best thing about old age—and I’m only starting to grok the fullness of it, Gentle Reader—the best thing is, I get to enjoy and appreciate everything. Things that used to drive me crazy now do nothing but warm my heart.
The folly, stupidity, and perversity of the human race? Well, what do you expect? It’s only human. We all mean well. We can’t help that we’re limited creatures. But in the living of life, we do throw off occasional gleams of splendor.
I think my worst birthday was when I was thirty. I had reached three decades of age and felt I had not accomplished anything. I meant I had not written a symphony or the great American novel; I had not made a million dollars; I was not President of the United States. I was a failure.
What I did not know then, but do know now, is that most of us don’t leave a great big mark on history. Most of us leave a whole lot of little marks—and half of them, for better or worse, we don’t even know we’re leaving.
It can take a lifetime to wise up to the great joy of living.
The poet W. D. Snodgrass, when he was only thirty, wrote:
While scholars speak authority
And wear their ulcers on their sleeves,
My eyes in spectacles shall see
These trees procure and spend their leaves.
There is a value underneath
The gold and silver in my teeth.
Though trees turn bare and girls turn wives,
We shall afford our costly seasons;
There is a gentleness survives
That will outspeak and has its reasons.
There is a loveliness exists,
Preserves us, not for specialists.
I’ve tried sometimes, but never quite succeeded, in specializing. Guess I’m just a tough old bird.
Blessings,
Larry F. Sommers
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