Recovery Daze

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Larry F. Sommers, Your New Favorite Writer

Surgeons operating. Photo by National Cancer Institute on Unsplash.
Not my lower back, but someone’s. Image by Jmarchn, licensed under CC-BY-SA-3.0.

I am an aged writer now recovering from a major surgical project on my lumbar spine. They re-aligned and fused the L3 and L4 vertebrae through a seven-inch incision, in a six-hour operation. 

Recovery is not so quick and easy.

I used to make my own breakfast, because I like it a certain way, and my wife does not get hungry as early as I do. Now, she cooks the oatmeal, and I just sit at the table and spoon on the berries.

After breakfast, it used to be: shower, shave, dress, and go about my day. Now, I totter from the table to the recliner and stretch out for my first rest period. Breakfast is tiring, you know. 

In the recliner, blissful relaxation takes over. My whole body feels happy except for some minor discomfort in the back—you know, where they did the construction project. To relieve the boredom, I check the email on my cell phone, and maybe look at the day’s news headlines. But, you know, holding up the phone above my head wears me out, so I have to take it in stages.

Eventually, I make my way to the bathroom for the shower-shave-and-dress routine. It takes longer than it used to. By the time I present myself, fully dressed and smelling good, it’s time for lunch.

And lunch—well, you know—lunch can be exhausting. I need a time of rest after lunch.

On a good day, there may be an hour, or half an hour—between post-lunch rest and mid-afternoon nap—to sit at the laptop, focus, and achieve something. It may be only re-arranging medical appointments. Or puzzling out the meaning of a significant email. Or tending to something that needs advance planning, like marketing events several months in the future. 

Maybe I can write a page or two on one of several works in progress. But not much progess. It goes by inches, not yards.

Then it’s time to rest again. You get the idea. 

The thing is, Dear Reader, I have, at this moment, three or four good books in me—fun books, interesting books, useful books—but it’s hard work to get them out of my head and onto paper. It takes time. Your New Favorite Writer’s time at this point, like J. Alfred Prufrock’s, is being measured out with coffee spoons. 

But one must endure.

I discovered I am not young anymore. Some wag long ago minted the lines:

“How do I know that my youth is all spent?
Well, my get up and go has got up and went.”

And it’s true, Neighbor. It’s true.

Shakespeare portrait by John Taylor (1585-1651). Public Domain.

It’s the sixth of Shakespeare’s seven ages:

the lean and slipper’d pantaloon,
With spectacles on nose and pouch on side;
His youthful hose, well sav’d, a world too wide
For his shrunk shank; and his big manly voice,
Turning again toward childish treble, pipes
And whistles in his sound.
Old man walking. Photo by Zhuo Cheng you on Unsplash.

Some old men move as if they were made of Waterford crystal. I fear I’m starting to walk that way.

At eighty, when you are blindsided by something your body has been saving up for decades, you can be forgiven for wondering what else might be in store. You can’t help turning a kind of mental corner. 

Life will be different now, maybe wildly different. At the very least, adjustments must be made.

But it’s early in recovery yet. I’ll be back, Dear Reader. 

I pray the good Lord will give me the time I need to get what’s in my head out onto paper. 

I expect to be in my booth at book fairs early in the fall. Come buy The Price of Passage or Izzy Strikes Gold!

Blessings,

Larry F. Sommers

Your New Favorite Writer

Summum Discursum

William Bendix, left, canonized the line, “What a revoltin’ development this is!” on the 1950s sitcom The Life of Riley. Nervously clutching the banjo is Sterling Holloway. Publicity photo. Public Domain.

What a revoltin’ development this is!

Your New Favorite Writer’s thrills and chills of the past week have shaken loose a flurry of new notions–things I must share with you or burst–yet those same impacts, centering on major surgery in my lower spine, have left me wounded on the field, writhing in pain, unable to lift the flimsiest quill to set forth any manifestos.

Woe is me! Woe unto all in my estate: Popping with ideas and lacking any train of thought, any line of persistent expression, across which to festoon them.

I am reduced to hunting and pecking, upward from below, on a cell phone to string a concatenation of letters, one by one, hoping they will arrange themselves into words, and the words into thoughts and sentences, and it will all mean something while I lie spraddled on an ice pack.

Is it time for my next pill? Yes, please.

Next week, Dear Reader.

Blessings,

Larry F. Sommers

Your New Favorite Writer

AND, TO CAP THAT . . .

I woke up this morning, fresh home from lumbar surgery at University of Wisconsin Hospital, to read that a Kaibab Plateau event, the Dragon Bravo Fire, burned down the National Park Service lodge on the venerable North Rim of the Grand Canyon, a place loved by generations of hikers, campers, explorers, and just regular old tourists like you and me. 

I call the North Rim venerable because it was there long before we ever even thought about it.

I’m tempted to say the fire waited until it knew I was down and couldn’t respond. 

View from the North Rim Lodge.

I’m sure glad I got my chance at the place last May 15-16. A group of us, organized by the Road Scholar people, spent two nights on the North Rim after a longer stay on the South Rim. The majestic Grand Canyon Lodge was a perfect place to gather our thoughts and reflections in solitude after a week of exposure to the stunning 277-mile gorge of the Colorado River. 

Now it’s gone. Just like that.

But don’t you worry about a thing, Dear Reader. Our systems for meting out blame are already in action. 

Arizona Governor Katie Hobbs, according to the Associated Press, “called for a federal investigation into the Park Service’s handling of the fire, which was sparked by lightning July 4.

“ ‘Arizonans deserve answers for how this fire was allowed to decimate the Grand Canyon National Park,’ the governor said in a social media post Sunday. ‘The federal government chose to manage that fire as a controlled burn during the driest, hottest part of the Arizona summer.’”

It may be that National Park Service officials made a bad decision on how to respond to the fire when it first arose. Or it could be that officials with limited resources at their disposal sometimes guess wrong. Or perhaps there are some fires that will not be contained until they’re good and ready. 

Two or more of those things can even true at the same time. For the ultimate verdict of history, tune in again a hundred years from now. 

One near-term question that arises is, “Will the lodge be rebuilt?” And the answer, almost surely, will be: Not right away. 

An expensive barn to replace.

It’s a very big project. Unless you’ve been there, you may not appreciate the ambition required to transport the needed tons of building materials to the remote site, high in the Arizona mountains, to reshape the land, build new service roads, provide essential infrastructure for construction—power, water, etc.—analyze architectural requirements (which will have changed since the lodge was built ninety years ago), etc. My guess is that to pull all these requisites together will take a few years, and then the actual construction will take a few more. 

The chief requirement, of course, is the political will to rebuild. But I can’t imagine that will be lacking. The site is simply too grand, too seminal; it simply looms too large in our national awareness to go untenanted for very long.

A more immediate question is water. That’s always the key question in the Southwest, but quite specifically: The sparsely-populated and lightly-touristed North Rim provides nearly all the water for the whole Grand Canyon National Park. The North Rim of the Canyon rests upon the Kaibab Plateau, a high-lifted (8,000-8,500’) rock shield that funnels water southward. According to a National Park Service website, “The Transcanyon Water Distribution Pipeline, known as the Transcanyon Waterline (TCWL), is a 12½-mile water pipeline constructed in the 1960s that conveys water from the Roaring Springs source on the North Rim to the Havasupai Gardens . . . pump station and ultimately to the South Rim. It provides the potable water and fire suppression for all facilities on the South Rim as well as some inner canyon facilities in the Cross Canyon Corridor including over 800 historic buildings.” 

One of the famous Grand Canyon mules. They stay on the South Rim but drink water–lots of it–from the North Rim.

It goes on to say: “The National Park Service (NPS) is replacing the TCWL as it is beyond its expected useful life, experiences frequent failures, and requires expensive and continuous inner canyon maintenance work to repair leaks.

“Since 2010, there have been over 85 major breaks in the TCWL that have each disrupted water delivery. The breaks are expensive to repair, occur in locations that pose dangers for responding employees, and negatively impacts the visitor experience. The cost for a single waterline break often exceeds $25,000. Access to the inner canyon, where breaks occur, is by trail and helicopter only.” 

Fortunately, the needed upgrade work is already underway, but it comes as a package of discrete projects, which are scheduled over the course of several years. 

It seems that a water treatment (chlorination) facility has been affected by the Dragon Bravo Fire, and perhaps other parts of the water system as well.

If the fire has caused an outage of potable water for the five million tourists who will visit the South Rim this year, that will have to be addressed posthaste. 

As for the rest, well, as I said, it’s going to take some time. 

It’s a good thing we have time available in which to make it right. At moments like this I treasure the wisdom of Christ as mediated by Dame Julian of Norwich, a 14th-century English mystic: “All shall be well, and all shall be well, and all manner of thing shall be well.”  

Blessings,

Larry F. Sommers

Your New Favorite Writer

Luminaries

Dear Reader: Please enjoy this week’s reflection, the last one Your New Favorite Writer will post before a major surgical operation. I’m not sure how many weeks it will be before it’s convenient for me to post again, but have no fear. I’ll get back to you. Cheers.

When I was a boy, in the 1950s, my grandparents had the biggest elm tree in Knox County, Illinois.

It stood in the front yard of their modest residence at 112 Public Square in the little town of Knoxville. It overspread and shaded their large side yard, next to K.G. Klinck’s Mortuary. The tree was at least six feet in diameter, with probably a twenty-foot girth, and they had built a brick wall around its base, perhaps to honor its fame.

The summers were hot—more so than many Wisconsin friends have ever experienced—but we were dauntless. Summer evenings were spent in the yard, picnicking under the huge elm. On Saturday nights the town band mounted the octagonal bandstand in the park across the street and reduced Sousa’s Washington Post March and The Stars and Stripes Forever to glittering shreds of sounding brass and tinkling cymbals. Folks in cars parked around the square beeped their horns in applause.

Fireflies rising in a glade. Photo by Олег Мороз on Unsplash.

The air was warm and sultry, even at night. Fireflies, which we called lightning bugs, painted rising commas of green glow upon the dark as grownups digested rhubarb pie and we kids—Cousin Steve, Aunt Linda, and I—scooped winged luminaries from the black air and jailed them in mayonnaise jars with holes punched in the lids. 

 It was all great fun for us; and we found, when we posted bond for them next morning, that most of our prisoners had survived the night.

Now, seventy years later, I sit in Madison, Wisconsin—more than two degrees of latitude north of Knoxville, Illinois—and cannot help smiling at a familiar sight: lightning bugs, flashing profusely all over my backyard. There are not as many as Grandma had in her yard way back when. But when we first moved to Madison, fifty-five years ago, we seldom saw them at all.

The earth is warming, friends. That’s not a political statement, it’s a simple observation. I don’t know if there’s anything we can or should do. I find the fact congenial, because I’ve always liked warm better than cold. Nowadays, fireflies or lightning bugs are a common sight in south central Wisconsin, and we’re much enriched by it.

I sit in my backyard lounge chair, and a little green lantern rises beside me. I could close my hand and capture it. But, why? 

Live and let live, I say. Look at it from the insect’s point of view: To be held in an old man’s fist, or trapped in a glass vessel, even one with air-holes in the top: Neither seems as wholesome as the free air. 

Firefly on a leaf. Photo by Junyu-K, licensed under CC-BY-SA-4.0.

Anyway, I don’t need a collection of lightning bugs. What I need is what they signify: Little bits of luminance, chopping the enveloping night into understandable spheres.

Blessings,

Larry F. Sommers

Your New Favorite Writer

Another Big Week

What a week. 

St. Louis Gateway Arch. Photo by Yinan Chen, Public Domain.

My apologies, Gentle Reader, for not posting here last week. I was busy attending a national church convention in St. Louis. We had a wonderful time, caught up with a lot of old Congregationalist friends, and learned a few new things. 

We got a scare on the way home. Your New Favorite Writer experienced a sudden weakness of the thighs amounting to total collapse. I had to hunker over the sink in the hotel bathroom because my legs wouldn’t stand up. It was terrifying.

Praise the Lord, it was a transient episode. After a minute or two, I was all right.

But it happened again at home the day after we got back. This time, I called 911. 

A squad of paramedics and firefighters swooped down and bore me, as on angels’ wings, to the University of Wisconsin Hospital Emergency Room. It was all very swift and efficient. 

MRI image of lumbar spinal stenosis. Not mine, but similar. Image by Jmarchn, licensed under CC-BY-SA-3.0.

It was still scary.

At the hospital, medicoes gave me an MRI scan and found spinal stenosis in the lumbar region. Displaced vertebrae squeezed the nerves that work my legs, and that’s what caused a temporary paralysis. If left untreated, this condition might kill those nerves and make me a permanent invalid.

I sure am glad we have doctors. And nurses. And MRI machines, and the technicians who run them. God bless them, every one.

I have an appointment with a neurosurgeon, and we’ll schedule an operation to fix the problem. Soon, I hope. 

Regular readers of this blog will appreciate the irony. In our last installment, I had just turned 80 and was flying high with the thrill of being in such good shape, looking forward to an active old age. 

“Pride goeth before destruction, and an haughty spirit before a fall.”—Proverbs 16:18

“How are the mighty fallen!”—2 Samuel 1:19.

The Bible has a lot of sayings like that.

I never used to be very good at praying, but I’ve gotten better—because so many friends need prayers. In the last decade, no day goes by but two or three people of my acquaintance need intercessory prayer—often for cancer, but for other woes as well. 

I often thank God for the astounding string of blessings that has allowed me to escape major health threats. Until now.

Going to the ER was an emotional experience. Answering questions posed by paramedics, doctors, and nurses, my voice trembled—a sign that I was shaken.

Lying on the gurney awaiting an MRI scan, I prayed sincerely to the Lord God above—up there somewhere beyond the fluorescent ceiling lights. I prayed an intercessory prayer, this time on my own behalf. But I also mentioned my friends Stu and Janet, visited by different forms of cancer—because the Lord knows we’re all in this together.

After my MRI scan, as I lay on the gurney awaiting transport back to the ER, I said Psalm 23 in my mind two or three times. I was led beside the still waters; I was made to lie down in green pastures; His rod and His staff, they comforted me. 

Beside still waters. Photo by Elsie Anderson on Unsplash.

Over a long lifetime I have been, at times, a reluctant convert, honoring God more by omission than observance. But as we age, our perspective tends to true up. Life is fleeting and precious. 

Years of spiritual training and practice have prepared me, at least a bit, for this moment. I know some good ways to get in harmony with the Creator and enjoy my role in His universe.

I hope the surgery will be soon. Please pray that I make a good recovery. 

Blessings,

Larry F. Sommers

Your New Favorite Writer